How do you know...

ANYTHING? I swear. One minute I think one way, and the next I am off in a totally different direction. I just want to follow God's will for me. I am following the basic principles of the Bible and stuff , but I don't know what to think about certain things. I need clarity.

This is so AWESOME!!!

So, less than three hours after posting the blog about how I was bawling my eyes out because I miss my Dad so much, he has given me something to smile about. I was talking to my best friend about everything while we were at the gym and she has always been there to help me through any rough spot in my life. She also happens to work at a casting office, where she receives many gifts from actors who have been cast in something by her, or are hoping to be. These gifts usually take the form of cookies, brownies, alcohol, cards, gift certificates, and other things like that. Today, however, when she got back from the gym, there was a pecan pie sitting on the desk addressed to her and her boss. The pie was a gift from an actor who was apologizing for being late to an audition. In the entire year that my friend has worked in that office, no one has EVER given them pie of any kind. It also happens that pecan is my Dad's favorite dessert of all time. I can't help but smile because I know that this was a special message from my Dad to let me know that he is still with me. He heard everything I was saying earlier today and he did something to show me that he is thinking about me. I love it and I love you, Dad!

Has it really only been 5 months?

Yep. Only 5 months since my Dad went home to Heaven, but it seems like a lifetime. I can keep it together most of the time. I can usually be happy that he is with Jesus, but today I am tired of the whole "not having him around" thing. I have my graduation ceremony on May 13th (Brittne and I are walking in the same ceremony!) and I know how much my Dad wanted to be there. I believe he still will be, but I wish I could see him watch me walk across that platform as the first Youssi girl to get a Bachelor's degree.





Today I am wishing for the Rapture so I can get to Heaven and jump into my Dad's arms for the most gigantic hug ever! I know I still have work to do, people to meet, and things to accomplish. But I am content, at this moment, to daydream and think upon the moment when I will be reunited with my Father, both of them. :)